~Unwanted~

Heyy, guys...
So heard lil' things yet?



It hurts.

Knowing they never care.

Knowing they look at your siblings more.

Knowing you never know how to gain that feeling.

It hurts.

The song Little Things by One Direction was brought up;
Cause it hurts for me to listen to it.

I love the song, 
because it's true.
I hate the song,
because it hurts to think...

Unwanted,
Unloved,
Unnecessary,
I feel like I'm wasting oxygen!

It's upsetting,
You put A and B,
Make them do the same thing.

A gets more praise,
Than B.
All because...?

Well, only God knows that answer.
So, now B's feeling,
Unwanted.

B puts a smile on her face,
But inside,
She just gained a deep cut.
And it hurts.

Everyone feels unwanted sometimes,
I may sound desperate and I do,
However, if you know me,
You'd know...
You have never heard these things from me,
Until you find this blog and read it.

No one reads this.
That's why I release everything here.
No one bothers,

So why should you?

-SimplyySarah-

~My Confession~

Heyy.... guys...

I promised, someone to do this...

So yeah...

I honestly, don't know what to say...

My life has been a weird twist of a roller coaster since I've gotten a hold of it... 

I can't seem to let go,

I have something on my mind even though it's something I shouldn't even worry about. 

Have you ever heard the quote,

"If a man hasn't discovered something he will die for,

He isn't fit to live." 

-Martin Luther King-

Well, I haven't found that reason,

So, what IS there to live for?

I know I've always said,

My hopes are high,

I have faith.

However, there's still a part of me that screams;

Just One Jump!

Just One Gulp!

Just One Slice!

And It's All Over... .

My heart and guts however,

Speaks differently.

Every time I think about it,

It's always, 

Someone will save you.

Someone will come to your rescue.

Will someone?

Anyone?

I never share my story to get sympathy or pity.

Please, doing that would be completely inconsiderate!

I know others have got it worse than I do,

All I want is someone to just snap me out of it.

Bring me back.

If it was ever possible...

I wonder what it feels like to actually fall in love.

Cause' Once Upon A Time,

I did.

But it was all a lie.

The irony is that the one who always wants to find love,

Finds it last,

But gives the BEST relationship advice.

Ever felt you were in a group of crowded people,

Even people you love,

But you still feel alone?

I get it.

A lot.

My pain is my own misery,

My scars are my own fault,

My bruises are my own memories,

My lyrics are my own stories.

Sometimes, 

I purposely put myself out there,

To see if anyone would remark or comment.

I would rebel against things I shouldn't do just to feel someone notices or at least cares.

However, doing these things with a "This-Is-Me" character, to see if anyone noticed.

I tend to bottle everything up,

Seal it and cover it up with a smile and laugh.

It's worked all this while...

It really isn't hard once you get used to it.

I'm different,
I'm weird.


My whole life,
I've been a listener,
If I cross that line and start talking,
People will start to think differently,
So, I keep to myself..

A lot.

It's useless trying to confide to others,

Honestly,

If I confide to someone,

That person will never confide to me.

They'll be thinking,

She has it bad, won't wanna add pressure.

I shouldn't say anything, she already has her own issues.

It'll only burden him.

Well, it'll actually let the other person know that you trust him as much as he trusts you,

I know I would.

I guess...

I don't see things a normal person should,

Which makes me a target.

I don't like that,

In any way,

At all.

I also take a lot of things people say bout' me to the heart.

I'm not perfect,

I'm insecure.

And literally...

About Everything.

I never liked how I look,

How could anyone like me for looks and all.

That's why I say looks isn't everything,

But admit it...

It DOES play a part.

If I could change any one thing about myself, What would it be?

I seriously have a lot of things I would like to change.

Pick one?

Impossible.

I do from right to wrong.

Trust me, I do.

I also know, I think of doing more wrong than right.

Cutting was only the beginning.

Stopping to do so was the hardest part.

But I never break my promises,

Unless something else beat it to a pulp.

However,

It doesn't mean it has ever, 

EVER,

Left my mind.

Neither smoking and shit like that...

My troubles lead to worries,

My worries lead to stress.

Causing my to vomit a lot...

Hardly anyone knows it.

Maybe cause I eat a lot?

Insecurities once more. 

Yeahh, so...

My life's screwed up,

And nobody knows it.

My minds messed up,

And I just keep silent.

My emotions are all fcuked up,

And I cover it with a smile.

Story Of My Life...

-SimplyySarah-

~The 3 L's~

Heyy, guys!
I know, it's weird, cause' you can't help reading this is a perky voice, right?! xD

Well, it's cause the holidays have started!!!






I felt as though my blog suddenly became something too personal,
I didn't want that.
I wanted a blog to inspire.
So, I'm here to make a statement to all YOU people now.

Laugh.

It's true.
Now, go out there.

Smile and Laugh,
For no reason,
Just smile.
For all the reasons,
Just laugh.

It's weird,
At first,
However, once you see all the happiness and laughter,
once you just let loose,
Everything seems so bright.
Like you can do anything,
It works for me,
Why not you try it?

This!

Is Very True!

It happened to me once before,

It was the most wonderful feeling in the World.

I wouldn't trade it for the World!

However, you have to be sure,

or you could end up like me...

NO!

Not old and shaking!

I'm still young mind you!

I meant upset and lonely! 

Haha, don't worry bout' me,

Just keep searching for "The One"...

It's worth it.

Even if it's the smallest of the smallest of things!
It still affects you either way...


It's funny,
How everything affects your life,
After a simple nod or shake of the head.

It's weird,
Knowing how many paths there are,
And anyone of those,
Could lead you to...
The Dream You Want,
The Love of Your Life,
The Future You have Wanted...
Or
The complete opposite....

Whatever it is,
Remember...

Live. Love. Laugh!

-SimplyySarah- 

~Lost~

Heyy...

I don't really know WHY I still run back here to express my feelings.

Maybe knowing random strangers or not so random people find this... 

They get a clue?

I never meant for this blog to get soo...

Emotional.

But, that's what they are for right?

I do.

Lost.

Cold.

Empty.

I don't know anything anymore.

I feel like an empty shell being controlled,

By my mind; Instead of my heart.

I may not be feeling what others are feeling,

However, I know enough to make me start thinking again.

"What would it feel like to have control again?"

"What would it feel like if I never opened my stupid mouth and told them; about everything?"

I wear two guitar picks around my neck;

as a reminder.

I wear a silver Superman logo too;

as strength.

It broke recently.

The Superman Necklace.

It broke from its chain,

I nearly broke down,

Thinking I lost it.

The lost feeling I felt.

As if, if I didn't have it.

All my strength to carry on would disappear,

and vanish into thin air.

When I found it,

A huge wash of relief came over me.

I smiled,

And continued to run;

With all my strength.

God, knows what's holding me up now.

Music, maybe?

Or a constant will...

That it's not my time yet.

It hurts cause' I know there's nothing wrong with my life,

Yet everything seems to play differently in my mind.

My heart gets this disturbed feeling,

And I take everything good or bad into it.

I suffocate it.

Now,

I feel like screaming my lungs out.

But I'm underwater.

I know I always end a blog post on a happier note,

But I can't...

I can't do it today.

I know I stress because of my own mistakes.

It always happens.

That's why the physical scars are there.

Just to prove that I'm only human.

Just to take the mental pain away.

Cause' the mental pain is worse than physical right?

Every time, my mind takes control instead of my heart.

I don't deserve any of this,

The people around me too.

Yet I grasp it as though without it,

I'd fall faster.

The worst part out of this?

No one will be there to catch me.

-SimplyySarah-