~Pop Culture [A Poem?]~

Heyy, people reading...
This isn't exactly and advice post,
I was cleaning out my old laptop and found something interesting I thought I'd share...
It was my very first Poem,
For my High School's English Oral Exam with a couple of friends.

It's something I'm quite proud of,
For someone with no experience with Slam Poetry,
besides watching the many amazing poets on YouTube.

It was for school,
so I couldn't cuss or implicate any trigger-warnings...
Cause it's school...

I thought I'd simply share it for whoever reads my blog,
Share a lil' of my personal life...

But please,
Don't steal it?
It's tempting but this is my very own handy-work.
It looks simple and flawed but it took hours,
so... please?

Anyways, here it is.


Pop Culture

Pop Culture is also known as Popular Culture.
A phrase many of you may claim to know
but how many of you
really take the initiative to understand,
To realise, what such a culture could do
to one’s mind, one’s heart, one’s life or one’s body.

Pop Culture
also defines not only the way a person should dress up,
but also the way someone walks, speaks, drinks, eats, listens, thinks…

 Sometimes,
it also defines how he does not speak,
how he never eats,
how he never listens.
To the cries and pleas and tears and angst and regret
His purple heart makes,

His purple heart makes,
His purple heart makes...

His purple heart…
A shade he turned his own heart into
after beating it up all the time,

If you were to personify the heart into a real object,
it would look like an IPhone with a hammered screen
as though you had dropped it
from the highest floor of the tallest towers,
Again and again
and again and again,
and again...

Pop Culture
a culture that depicts so many people into thinking,
that the pretty models in the magazines
or the gorgeous actors on the big screen,
is the only way they will ever look in the mirror and like what they see.
Like what we see;
skinny and pretty,
handsome and... sexy?

As though, this culture
is evidence that the pretty people
get what they want.
What they need.

Pop Culture
a culture that has managed to wiggle its way into our society,
telling people what to do
what not to do.

Allowing people to think,
that they have the right to wake up in the morning
to convince their own shadow that      
they are something worth following.

That they have the right to wake up in the morning
to convince their own reflection that
they are something worth reflecting.

There are a couple of reasons
why this culture will be controlling the lives of society
in about three years.

Five reasons
why it's already controlling our society today.

One.
          Contrary to popular belief,
          both girls and boys have been conformed to such a culture.

Two,
           It is already slowly convincing our society,
           that this is the way to live.
           The way we live.

Three.
            It has already unintentionally claimed the rights of the way we live,
            and we cannot decide whether we do or do not live in such a way.

Four.
             It is already slowly claiming its imaginary crown,
             and we have somehow deemed it our leader.

Five.
              It has already claimed its victims,
              and that is why now we now
              live in a world filled with
              hatred
              judgement
              suicide...


We need to stop.
We need to breathe.

                   We need to think.

People need to stop thinking
that they can never be good enough,

People need to stop thinking

that they can't be
bigger than society allows them.

They need to stop thinking
they can never be more than they could ever be.

We shouldn’t let society define us,
allow them to stop us from our own

imagination and creativity.

We have every right
to live our lives the way we want to,
live in our own skin with our own rules.

We have every right to live as we wish.

We do have the rights.

However,
It is until you stop listening to
the whispers of judgement
and silent glares of hatred.

It is only then you can you can hear your insides scream,
“Let me out!”

Know your rights,
because you deserve to walk out in public
without hating yourself.

You deserve to walk out in public
Proud.
Unashamed.
Living...

We deserve to live without any hatred,
fear
or judgement.

You deserve to live your own way.

So live.

And never let anything

Hold You Down.

END

Tell me what you think if you want?
I'd really like to know how I did. 
And remember

Be the Weirdo, you want to be.
-SimplyySarah-

~To Be Honest~

I lied. [again]

Sorry for disappearing on you guys.

It was a rather... hectic year.

Things didn't go as plan.

Tears, pain...

And everything in between.

Let's start the New Year with something new shall we?

Now.

To Be Honest

It's a strange three-word-opening,

Used in horrifically wrong ways.

It's become some trend for people to like and stuff being posted.

Well, here's my version.

[TO BE HONEST] will be me...

Actually being honest.

Shocker.

Okayy.

I shall only do 5 To Be Honest Facts.
Cause this post got really long,

Let's begin...

.One.

To Be Honest...

I will never have the right words to make a bad situation okayy. Everything I write in this Blog is as real as can be, trust me.

To help you recover and learn and discover that you are never alone is the main goal of this Blog.

However,

it is also a form of... 

assuring myself.

It's a form of me to help all of you but also a form of help for me. To help advise myself I suppose you could say?

I'm honestly just another reader.

.Two.

To Be Honest.

I still stand by this.

I don't believe in doing something I don't believe in.

I may be a hypocrite for saying that...

But I want you to learn from my mistakes.

Don't. Ever. Do Something.

That you believe isn't right.

Obviously, This doesn't apply to trigger-warning actions.

I mean... Don't do something that...

Hurts you.

That traps you.

That... ruins you.

I know, You understand what I mean.

Even if it was me you were talking to.

Just don't.

.Three.
To Be Honest.
I'm not happy.
I never really, truly was.
Every time I think I am, someone takes it away from me.
It's like this quote says,
"8 seconds of happiness."
Cause it feels that way doesn't it?
You only feel those 8 seconds.
When something terrible happens...
Whoosh.
Happiness just... obliviates.
It hurts so bad, I know it does.
Even I don't know what to do at times like those.
Yeah, we all have our moments.
But it's not fun, living in the shadows of your thoughts.
I know, how that feels.

.Four.

To Be Honest.

This is all I'm looking for in life now.

But even now, I find it difficult to write or speak a sentence without thinking too much about it.

I'm not talking about a text to a crush or something like that.

I'm talking about opening my mouth to say even a greeting.

I never understood the term, "To Be Accepted".

Simply because I fear it. I fear the rejection as anyone would.

But I don't know why, it's like a paranoia I can't seem to shake off.

Even with people I'm friends with now,

I'm afraid to speak my heart.

I can speak my mind, definitely, but never my heart.

To tell them I feel sad or my heart feels heavy is a war I have yet to win.

And I don't know if I ever will.

.Five.

To Be Honest.

I do, honestly, care.

I care for the lives of friends I have yet to meet.

I care for the lives of friends I will never meet.

I care for the lives of friends I have lost.

I spend so much time and effort because I've seen what time can do.

I've seen the magic of someone going through a rough time and learning that they have a better road ahead.

The journey is agonizing, and I know this for I am still on my very own walk.

I spend so much time and effort in making what you call a lost cause find life again, because I see your potential. Everyone has one. You just haven't heard yours.

The tears I cry,

The scars I have,

The blood I shed,

Is all part of my journey,

To learn and understand why things happen the way they do. Cause in all honesty,

I'm still trying to figure the fuck out of some things.

Like the ache in my heart.

The throbbing in my skull.

Until then...

I'll live.

-SimplyySarah-

~Self-Conflict~

And as promised, I return!

And since I missed the New Year greetings and EVERY EVENT OF THE YEAR so far,

I promise to post everyday more often.

Let's get started!

Conflict.

I'm not just talking about any conflict here.

I'm talking about Self- Conflict.

Similarly,

Self conflict's the conflict you have within yourself.

And only to yourself.

Duh!

Recently,

This word has been running around in my mind.

And I'm wondering,

How exactly do you cure yourself of,

Self- Conflict.

Conflict is...

The constant thinking.

The constant replaying of the past.

How things could have gone.

What happened if you chose the other.

What would happen if you said something or didn't.

The constant thoughts of the future.

What's going to happen next.

What could possibly go wrong.

How would they react.

What are you suppose to do.

The constant thought of loved ones.

If they're healthy.

If they're alright.

If they're happy.

If they're sad.

If they're hiding anything.

If they care.

The constant thought of yourself.

Your weight.

Your appearance.

Your image.

Your self worth.

Your studies, work, money.

Yourself.

Well,

For now.

I want you to STOP.

STOP

all this thinking or over thinking.

STOP

being selfish or selfless

Just...

For once in your lifetime.

Go to someone you love

and just hug them.

Don't think of anything else.

Just call them up,

or go meet them.

Talk.

Laugh.

Forget.

Free yourself from this cage you've trap yourself in.

YOU

do not deserve this pain.

YOU

do not deserve the ugly thoughts of 'What if's'.

YOU

definitely

do not need it.

As the great Tom Hiddleston said,

"We all have two lives. The second one starts when we realise we only have one."

Everything you do.

From today,

To forever.

Do it for yourself.

For others.

Forget the past.

It is gone.

Forget the future.

You'll discover that bridge later.

By then,

it will be the present.

Forget your loved ones stubborn-ess.

Ask them

What's wrong.

Help them.

Don't keep your worries to yourself.

Talk.

Forget about your self-worth.

You are perfectly fine.

Just the way you are.

Nothing is wrong.

There is never anything wrong with you.

Just people.

People can be stupid.

This post may not be as convincing as it should.
At times,
I too question
What I am doing.
Why, I do so.

I also wonder.

But I want you to know,

everyone goes through conflict.
Just like these

Be it with themselves,

or with others.

I'm not asking you to

not care.

I'm asking you to

Forget for a while.

Just a while.

Of whatever you're going through,

Of whatever that's causing you to go nuts.

Clear your mind.

So. your conflict

Doesn't affect

Your CHOICE.

Because you're not alone.

You're never alone.

-SimplyySarah-

~Christmas~

Ahh, Christmas.

What is it about Christmas that gets everyone in such a joyous mood?

Is it the...

Decorations?

Snow?

Lights?

Presents?

Gingerbread Cookies?

What is it?

As excited I am for the spirit-filled day,

I really wish,

My wish came true.

What is it?

I cannot say.

What I want?

I cannot get.

What I believe in?

I slowly lose hope for.

What I hope for?

I slowly lose faith in.

What I love?

I slowly hate.

What I need?

 Is Someone.

Anyone.

I need a shoulder.

A rock.

Someone.

When you become everyone's 'secret holder'.

You realize there's too much burden on that person,

To actually be there for you.

Compared to their problems,

What. Are. You?

Don't get me wrong,

I volunteered for this job.

But when you have mountains of burdens on your own shoulders...

I want someone I can share my problems with,

And vice-versa.

I just wish,

Instead of me saying,

"What's wrong?"

"Are you okay?"

I want that question to be asked...

To Me.

But of course,

Now I'm just wishing for too much.

But anyways.

What can you do?

But keep your chin up.

And smile when you really don't want to.

Therefore,

I trust you snowholes,

To do the same.

Smile.

Stop the pain.

And keep those chins up.

It's Christmas!

Look for something fun to do.

With the people who you said,

"I'll be there for you."

Don't let them down.

Cause you'll never know...

MAYBE

Just maybe...

You've Found.

What. You.

Need.

-SimplyySarah-

P.S - To anyone who does actually read this, (I doubt), I hope YOU have a wonderful Christmas!

Don't let my sorrows and self-pity bring you down!

Just ignore em' and 

Go out there and have a great one! x

~Wings~

Heyy, guys.
I'm back.
Feels weird to be writing again but I feel the need to share something I think I've finally come to learn.
But not yet fully accomplished.

Wings

What do you think when you see this word?
What do you feel when you see this word?
What do you embrace when you see this word?
We're always caught up with all the other stuff,
We fail to see the important ones.

Maybe,
You could relate to me...
Have you ever felt so broken?

Have thoughts like,

                         You're not worth it...

                                              

                                                               You shouldn't be here...

You're a let down...                                                        

                              You're just wasting air...

Well, let me just sum it ALL up for you.

YOU ARE WORTH IT
YOU BELONG HERE

YOU DO NOT DISAPPOINT

YOU ARE LOVED

I don't know if I'm saying this to convince myself,
But I'm sure I'm writing this to convince YOU.

Why throw away a life?

You should live it,

Dream big
and
Dive in.

In a long run,
You shouldn't be afraid anymore...
If you're too scared to stand up for yourself,
No one else will stand up for you.

You will be doing a favor to yourself.

I understand,
The pain and suffering.

It's something we experience in different ways but at the same time,
We still share pain.
We still have the scars.

So, grow a pair!!!

Love yourself!

Don't let yourself be a victim anymore.

I didn't.


You shouldn't.

The agony to smile everyday and pretend nothing's wrong.

To lie and pretend that everything's okay.

STOP

Go find someone,

Someone dear to you.

-A friend

-Best friends

-Loved ones

-Anyone

Talk.

Tell them something.

Tell them anything.

You have to.

Speak Up

Speak Out

&

Speak Now

Don't let yourself spend sleepless nights and have endless nightmares.
God, no.

And I'm sure you will.

I hope you will.

I know you will.

One day,
I hope you'll smile and think it was all worth it.

One day,
You will be acknowledged.

But for you to do that,
Put yourself out there for once.
Make a good decision,
A decision you want,

Make the right decision.

No Regrets.

And it's okay if you fall,

We're human,
We have the capacity to know,

That if no one's going to pick us up,

We pick ourselves up,

And prove them wrong.

Or...

Just pretend you slipped on a banana peel,

And laugh.

Cause we all makes mistakes.

Sometimes,
We tend to hurt others without meaning to do so,
So apologize,
Before it becomes a few years too late.

Make the right decisions,

Admit to the wrong ones,

Fight if you're right,
Stop if you're wrong.
So, let yourself off that safety bubble that's hanging off a cliff
And let yourself fall,

(I mean this metaphorically)

Let yourself grow a pair of wings.

-SimplyySarah-

~Promise~

Hello, people of the internet.

I come after 3 horrible weeks of midterms,

To spread my joy.

After learning a valuable lesson. 

The Promise.

Guys,

I can't promise you that...

-I'll be the perfect girl.

-I'll be the perfect friend.

-I'll be the perfect daughter.

-I'll be the perfect student.

-I'll be the perfect person.

I can promise...

-I won't let you fall.

-If you do fall, you won't be alone.

-I'll always try my best.

-Everything I do, is for others and you.

-I'll stress over every little detail or problem you have or had.

-I'll try to make you smile.

-I'll make you see a new light of day.

-I'll always listen.

-I'll be there for you.

I dislike making one walk alone.

Simply knowing that feeling is...

Regrettable.

If I do not walk the entire journey with you,

I would still walk two paces.

Even if it means,

keeping you company.

I guess, 

We should all learn from our mistakes.

And forgive those who have made mistakes.

We live in a cruel world,

Humanity in some.

Monsters in others.

I promise,

I would try to make,

At least,

The people I care for most smile,

Everyday.

I promise,

To protect the one's I love.

Even if it means,

Getting into trouble.

I promise,

To love and cherish the memories I make,

With the people,

I love and cherish the most.

I promise,

To always love you.

To never let you go.

Whatever it is.

I am not the perfect human being...

But I promise,

I'll try. 

-Simplyy Sarah-

P.S - Gonna make a new blog soon. Two blogs.. :O Haha, one for my private mind. One for reality!! :D x

~Love~

Heyy, guys.

So, here's an ironic topic to think over.

"We can live without religion and meditation, 

But we cannot survive without human affection..."

-Dalai Lama-


Love.
It's a strange feeling,
Isn't it?

"The heart was made to be broken." 

-Oscar Wilde -

What is love?
Why is it so important to us?
Why do people and animals crave it so much?
Why has it become a necessity in life?
How did it become the most important thing to us?
Why is it so confusing?
Why does it affect us the most?

Aren't you curious to find out these things?
I am.
I most definitely am.

Unlike most emotions,
It's not something you can easily control...

"Love is a serious mental disease..." 

-Plato-

When you fall in love...
The butterflies in your stomach,
The sweet sound of their voice.
Their amazing features,
Their wonderful personality.

"The story of life is quicker than the blink of an eye,

The story of love is hello, goodbye." 

-Jimi Hendrix-

It's the most amazing feeling in the world;


To be loved.
Yet,
When it's destroyed...
or taken away...


It's the most horrible, unimaginably painful feeling in the world.

How do we overcome it...?

"Love is like a flower - 

You've got to let it grow"  

- John Lennon- 

As far as I know...
It's all due time.

Or until someone else comes and heals you.
Like,
Family,
Friends,
or even a pet...

"The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched. 

They must be felt with the heart." 

-Helen Keller-

You know I'm right when I say,
We all want to be cuddled while watching a movie.
We all want that kiss in the rain.
We all want someone to whisper sweet nothings into our ears.
Or simplyy sing us a song to sleep.

To have someone to talk to,
To never leave your side.
To never feel alone,
Or ever need to hide.
Everything exposed to that one love,
That loves you for who you are.

"Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength, 

While loving someone deeply gives you courage." 

-Lao Tzu-

It's not wrong to admit,
That you WANT that feeling.

We ALL do.

However,
I believe,
We should wait till' the times right.

Then love will find us...

Instead of searching through that thick, pea soup fog....
Love will be the beacon light of that lighthouse,
That will lead you right to it.
When times right.

It may have an obstacle course of it's own,
But hey...


Anything For Love, right?
-SimplyySarah- 

~Luck~

Hello, people.

Since I missed February,
I'm making two posts for March.

*Insert fake fangirl scream*

I have been through a lot this month,
forgive me,
for not being around...

I've just recently learnt that through life,
you learn that not everything good or bad that happens to you,
is out of your strength or courage.

It all...
In the end...
Depends on Him.

He will decide your future,
depending on which path you choose.
If you're lucky...
Everything comes out fine...

If you're unlucky...
Then maybe you just need to learn a lesson out of it.
Cause there NEVER really is bad luck,
do you get it?

I've learnt that after suffering for so long,
And suddenly,
something good happens.
That to us...
Is Luck.

However,
It is actually a gift to us,
for being able to endure the peer pressure,
And hold in all our anger and sadness.
Till' we can't no longer.
That is what we call luck.

"When One Door Closes, Another Door Opens..."

Sometimes,
The journey to get to the other door,
is harder than it seems.
But trust me...

It'll All Be Worth It.
-SimplyySarah-

~Fear~

Heyy, guys.
I haven't been blogging and don't know if I should continue though...
Yeap, today's topic.



It's true.
I agree with that statement.
However, somehow
FEAR
Always has a way on making itself stronger than us
And ruin us.
Don't you agree?

Wanna know my secret?

My Biggest Fear?


Auto phobia.
-The fear of being isolated or alone.-


Although I like being alone
I don't like it ALL the time!



I used to have such a phobia. 
But now...
It's just that.
"I'm Used To It."

I could hardly care less now.
It hurts to slowly see them just slip.
But I can't do anything about it.
And it hurts.

Hah, probably think I'm stupid now.
I probably am.

I can't believe I'm crying.

It's such a stupid thing to cry about.
I'm a crybaby!
But I only cry...

Cause it's true.

Smiles and Laughs.
It's all me now.
I can't...
I have my emotions.
But I'm not... there. 

I guess I caused this on myself.
It's not like I can do anything else, right?

Loneliness is my biggest fear.
And it's slowly coming true.

I guess,
when I know everyone hates me.
Or looks at me then cringes in disgust...
I'll know it's time.

My heart already hurts.
Everytime I'm out there.
In Reality.
It feels like I'm continuously being stabbed.

Again and again.

So, here's the moral of the story to all of ya'll reading this!



Please.
Don't end up like how I feel now?
Do that for yourself.
Not me.

You don't deserve to be treated the way you are.
You deserve better.
So DROP fear!
Take that CHANCE!
Cause every storm,
deserves a rainbow.

Cause after all,
Every Fear is Simply,

Mind Over Matter, right?

-SimplyySarah-